God’s Wisdom vs Human “Wisdom” – Part 2

I had a friend whom I truly loved with all my heart. If she would’ve asked for my eyes I would’ve given them to her easily. Anyway, in early 2007 she ended our friendship and that hurt me deeply since she was my best and only close friend.

One day as I was going to work I felt so sad, so rejected, so betrayed, so humiliated, so ugly, so worthless, so stupid, so bitter, was so full of hatred and vengeful, and angry. I literally dragged my feet to work but as I entered the warehouse I decided that this is not me: I am a child of the living God, I haven’t been following Christ until now only to give in to bitterness and unforgiveness, I am the man who everybody asks, “Why are you so happy?” and now I was so bitter, sad, and angry. I decided that in break time I would go pray.

In break time I went to some secluded area of the warehouse and I knelt on some boxes. I prayed, and tried to keep my tears from coming down, and I told God that this was not me, I didn’t want to hurt anymore, I didn’t want to feel bitter, how could I who loved my friend so much be so bitter toward her, I wanted Him to heal my heart, even though I felt as if something was broken inside of my soul and I didn’t know what it was (I had never been rejected before and I didn’t know how to deal with it). I told Him that I am not talking about what the psychology preachers talk about, I am not talking about listening to happy Christian music to make me feel good, what I am asking for is His unexplainable, mighty and loving power. The power He showed so clearly in the Bible as He healed broken hearts…

That was the start of the journey of many prayers like this afterwards. Every time I felt bitter I would pray for her and her fiancé (I heard she got engaged to a Christian man from her church), her future children, her parents, her bother and sister. I would pray for her joy, for God to use her for His glory and service of His children. I prayed for myself: for God to heal me on the inside, because I didn’t even know what was wrong nevertheless try to fix myself! Needless to say, 2007 was by far the worst year I had ever gone through. But you know what? I came out victorious. Today, I have no feelings of bitterness, hatred, vengeful thoughts, anger, sadness, or anything like that towards anybody. Today I am as willing to love again, trust again, and give my all again, and be the best friend I can again.

Do you see the difference between following Biblical principles and our own “life experiences”? Many Christians, even faithful servants of God in churches, are suffering from deep rooted hatred and bitterness and most of those feelings have to do with someone who betrayed them from the opposite sex, either a friend, a fiancé, or a spouse. Christians who don’t respond to deep and tragic hurts according to God’s word suffer years of feeling depressed, feeling lost, feeling that salvation means nothing (they could ask questions such as, “What difference does it make if I am a Christian or not?”), feeling disconnected from others, feeling worthless, but most damaging they go on a self-destruction spree such as running from one man to another, as soon as one relationship ends they start the next one.

If there is something bothering you go kneel in prayer and tell God exactly how you feel! I mean, you can’t disappoint or surprise someone who knows it all! I prayed day after day saying no more than, “Lord, something is broken in my soul, please fix it.” How spiritual is that prayer?! Try to include this prayer in the Psalms and see if anybody will read the Bible anymore! It was as childish, and vague of a prayer as any I’ve prayed, but that’s the only way I could describe what was wrong with me and ask for His help.

If you struggle with sin, go tell Him, and if you enjoy sinning, go tell Him too! He already knows about it so stop wasting your time and get real and start experiencing His freeing and healing power. Most of us Christians are scared to admit that we enjoy sin. We talk about falling into temptation but you know what sometimes we don’t fall into it, we actually jump into it. We need to tell Him, and be brutally honest with ourselves. For example, if you enjoy smoking tell Him! Tell Him that you enjoy smoking and the only way out of it is if He gives you a new heart!

So the bottom line for you, if are a Christian is this: let go of all life experiences you pride yourself with—they are useless and will only lead to your spiritual downfall—and embrace God’s principles and go to Him as a child without bringing Him any “human wisdom” and ask Him to heal you and mend your broken heart.

I don’t know what your parents believe or have taught you. They are probably like my parents who are book lovers and have read tons of books about human psychology. But I want you to know that God is our ultimate parent, He is our heavenly Father, and so no matter who else tells you something you must always follow His advice.

Today, one of my heart’s biggest desires is to see my friend again, or at least hear good news about her, to hear that she is happy, and has God’s joy and peace in her heart, to hear that she is following Him closely and blamelessly, and that she is glorifying Him and pleasing Him in all her ways, and that she is reaping the rewards of putting Him first in her life.

You too can have God’s inner peace, forgiveness, and joy but you have to fight Satan’s lies, and adopt Christ’s heart and views of others, especially those whom you loved the most and have hurt you the most.

“Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you at the proper time, casting all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you.” 1 Peter 5:6-7